YAY!!!!

well.
i woke up
in my very own apartment.

this beautiful girl often mentions being a late bloomer.
i am for sure
a late bloomer.

just now coming into my own.
letting go of my people pleaser mentality. trying to figure out what pleases me first.

this is the first move i have made that is not because i broke up or got together with a boy.
the first move i did at my very own pace *slow*
the first time i was in charge of where all the pieces go

i feel truly independent.
for the first time ever.
EVER.

i had moments of sadness, the old baby box had to be tucked away in the closet.
furniture from the last house and memories of old loves.
a moment in walmart (which scares me anyways) trying to figure out what i needed and what i could afford to get and i thought i might break down and cry...

BUT the moments of sheer delight...far outweighed the scariness.

i woke up this morning with the sun.
almost sprinting to the kitchen to make coffee.
listening to music and dancing all around the apartment. jumping over boxes as i got ready for work....

ra ra ra ra ra!!!!