Nothing Better Lyrics

The Postal Service
Will someone please call a surgeon

Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart

That you're deserting for better company?

I can't accept that it's over...

I will block the door like a goalie tending the net

In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right

And i swear i'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better

Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

I feel must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself

With these revisions and gaps in history

So let me help you remember.

I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.

I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

So please back away and let me go

I can't my darling i love you so...

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better

Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future

Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

I admit that i have made mistakes and i swear

I'll never wrong you again

You've got a lure i can't deny,

But you've had your chance so say goodbye

Say goodbye

wishing i could wash away the mistakes of my past.

take away the blame

that sometimes

sits so heavily on my shoulders

i feel i can't hold it up alone.

so tonight i will take the advice of my beloved friend

write it all down

burn it all up

and release.

Right On

(deerfields, nc...the spot that awoke my heart)

I'd say the biggest decisions of your life, Amanda, were not your career, your marital status, or your home... they were choosing to love as often as you have.
And that's a lot, The Universe

the first email i received this morning...

these words moved straight into my soul.

(i found this site from boho girl and you can sign up for your own messages from the universe here...)

When I Forget

oh. i forgot
i forgot that i am love
deep in my belly
and that place in my heart is so filled up

and i took a comment
from a girl i don't even know
saying i sucked
and i believed it

actually took it to heart
my ego was so bruised
(i know... how little girl of me does that sound?)

but honestly, we all just want love
we crave it
we need it
and i forgot the source of it all

is within me

but when i was able to express my insecurities to this sweet new friend above (with the help of such a great love of mine. SUCH A GREAT LOVE)
and feel her hug and hear her words
about how truly wonderful she thinks i am

i remembered that we don't have to do it alone
we don't have to feel afraid to share our fears
and express them
to the people who love us regardless
and even to the new people
who are just beginning to love us

when a person's heart is filled up with so much love
they shine
naturally
and beautifully


i am not mad at myself for forgetting
only happy i remembered

No Right or Wrong Path...

So...over this break, I was thrown back into some old patterns. Some old issues resurfaced and I was faced with choices. I have been offered my job back in Atlanta, only with more money and benefits. This seemed totally safe and wonderful when I think of how some weeks I am barely able to pay for gas and food. But, when I thought about going back and taking the safe way out, I felt my stomach turn and my head hurt. I know I still have work to do here.


I want my choices to be from my heart, not let my ego rule. But my ego craves safety. Craves security. That job in Atlanta offers just that. It is not going to offer me a more challenging environment. And to move back there is to inevitably create more drama for me. It gives me more security with the familiar territory and people…but secure is not always the equivalent of best. I value my relationship with my parents and my friendships there, but it was just time for me to take a leap of faith on my own.

While I am not entirely alone here, I have this man in my life who I have fallen in love with. He does not enable me to sit back and assume that someone else will provide security for me while I avoid my path. My path will not let me rest. It will not let me avoid my journey. I feel that my fall from innocence, as late as it has come, has come now. I cannot have my problems solved by my parents, as they struggle with their own. I am choosing to stay here and to continue to dig deep. To continue to lead a life that involves risk and makes my palms sweat and my heart race. I am choosing this path in order to achieve my main goal. That is to find my true self. Express my true self. And do that in a way that makes a genuine contribution to the world.