just the right thing

you know
when you find
just the right thing
to express how you are feeling

the words that wrap you in love
or the place that welcomes you while you cry a million tears?

i've been trying to find a space
to grieve

i've come home to the lake you fished at
i've sat in the living room we've spent a thousand hours in together
i've meditated on the beaches in italy
writing words that will be your eulogy

but still....
i haven't found that peaceful feeling
i haven't said all my goodbyes
i haven't been able to slow down enough to feel your spirit all around me
all the time

in searching for a grief counselor
i came across this magical place
where a very special artist offers

good
grief
retreats

offering a time and place to express all that i feel
in nature
in art
in silence
and in peace.

i'm still working out the details of making it a reality
but i know that i've found
just the right thing.