The Sweetest Thing

so last night i was so tired

the kind of tired

where i cry and then get mad

and lose everything i touch

....

my saving grace was william picking me up from work

taking me to get a bottle of wine and some quick kashi meals...

then home to sleeeeeeeeeeeep.

...

i walk into my apartment and the first thing i see

is this perfectly tiny tree with lights and beautiful decorations

surrounded by these three cactus plants i have been wanting

and he says wait there's more

...

we go into the bathroom and there is this incredibly plush pink robe

with matching slippers that i quickly sink into

feeling so soft and comfy

and he says come this way

...

into the bedroom where a dvd player is all hooked up

where there are blinds on all the windows that

needed to be covered

*my neighbors were getting quite the show*

with shiny red and green bows on each window

he hung them in the living room too...

not leaving one box or anything for me to have to do

...

so we sit down to open our gifts

and he has listened to everything i have said

i needed

or could use

or really wish i had

just in the course of conversation

...

i unwrapped this dress his roommate made

with a heart on the back

i kept hoping it would not sell before i could afford to buy it

thermal underwear with hearts on them

for our trip to arkansas

and for the cold winters here

a head light for when we camp

and so i won't trip in the dark

a book on knitting and this

amazing yarn

a 3 page letter with all the

details of his love for me

and a gift certificate to the art store

where i can go and get all the

things on my list

so i can create

and not have to wait

on a project because i have no money

for supplies

...

i share all of this, not because of the things

but because

of the thoughtfulness behind them

because of the love he put into each and

every glittery ornament on the tree

because of the safe feeling i had

and the look in his eyes when

tells me i am the one

...

i share all this because i think sometimes

we can punish ourselves

with our words

our thoughts

our relationships

and there is nothing more beautiful
than feeling your every word.touch.thought

reciprocated

and

feeling like you have met your soul mate

the one person that everything

just flows so easily with

the person that you feel your best self around

...

when we love ourselves

we attract love